How do I get here

I thought I had book marked my Blog page but when I click on it All I can do is read it but not post
As it is I got here by random clicking

See my previous post about showering, I was wrong. I now ask her if she wants me to keep the shower running and she says "No"

A friend rang last Saturday. Its funny how your wife can make a liar out of you. I had emailed our friend to tell her that in my wifes eyes I now had a dual identity "Steve" and "The other guy" or "the other Steve". In any event,when she rang I was "Steve" (her husband)

While they were talking I went around the house looking for "hidden" objects. I found six shirts ,a pair of trainers (in the drawer under our bed)and a box of her "memory" pills

Maureen sometimes decided she wants to go next door for a coffee or go next door to excape the nasty man in our house. I go after her in a little while hoping that by the time I get there, I have turned from Mr Nasty to Steve. Most times I have but sometimes she will refuse to come home telling our neighbours how horrible I am and that she wants me out of the house. I have to promise to pack my bags before she will come back home

In order to prevent the scenes I have taken to locking the front and back door and I say I dont have a key. She can become really distressed and bang on the front door for maybe ten minutes hoping that someone will "rescue" her. Am I saving her distress or am i saving the neighbours from having to deal with her or am I saving my own face.

I saw a local authority social worker two weeks ago. I have to give all the details of our life
(a) so that Maureens downward march is on record against the day when local authority intervention (a home or a part time/full time professional carer) is needed
(b) to establish whether she thinks Maureen could benefit from and be accepted on the list of a local support group or a local organisation called Crossroads which provides someone to come sit with Maureen to give me a break

The latter seems to be the case but I dont expect much before  Christmas

In the mean time every day is up and down. I think Maureen would go shopping every day. I sometimes say we go shopping for foodstuff to throw out.

Things that happen but not every day
1. We have three dogs (we actually have two)
2. People come to the door and try to force their way in
3 Other people come to stay,sometimes two sometimes more
4 A girl is in the house. The people at 3 and 4 are never actually in the room or the house when she mentions them
5 She will go upstairs at night/late evening to check if anyone is in the other bedrooms
6. we have "lost" a dogs coat and three dog leads
7.she will do  ironing and ask me which are Steves shirts and which are mine

just so many things